I'll be By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you

                                                                   I'll never let you go  The lyrics in this song has been a staple in my day as I walk through the area that God has placed in front of me. I keep searching for something more when in reality it's right in front of me and all I really need to do is embrace it. The things of this world grow dim as the love of Jesus grows in front of me.    My life has been a crazy roller coaster of things happening. I was able to go home for a week on vacation and it was such a good time of just relaxing. I returned to the hectic ranch life and we are full swing into retreats and our open house coming up on Monday. Last night was a bit of fun and adventure as we had a BBQ with everyone and then had to head for cover later in the evening due to tornado watch/warning. Thank the Lord no tornadoes hit the Ranch. His hand has protected us every time. We ended the night with fellowshiping while watching a fantastic lightening show and  sitting around candles. God is good and He will never let us go!   

God's Got My Back!!

The past couple weeks been simply incredible!! The Lord has revealed Himself to me in ways that I never expected! On April 12th we had our monthly Prayer and Fast day. During that time we had a sharing time and while people were sharing God was working on my heart with anger I had with a person and being so selfish as to want to get credit for things I didn't need credit for. I had be brewing all day and by this point I wanted to scream, punch someone/something, and cry. We sang songs about being in the saviors love and Him always providing. Tears formed in my eyes and my heart broke as God touched my cold heart and asked me to forgive, forget, and trust Him. As one of the apprentices shared some of His experiences God said loud and clear "See Jemi....don't worry...I've got your back!" This hit me so hard as the realization that the Creator of the Universe had MY back! :) I have felt like a little child running to Jesus and having that security of knowing He's right beside me.
    While the apprentices where on Spring Break I was at the Ranch working alone all day for two weeks. It was heaven as i was able to spend time talking to God and learning to trust Him! Multiple incredible blessings have been dropped in my lap and everytime God says "See! I love you so much!!" :) I can't tell you how much I am in love with my Jesus!!
     There is nothing better than being so completely in love with him and dancing away your day with Him!