This is me! This is Who I am!

      As I have been laying on my bed sick with a sinus infection, ear infection and pink eye there has been so much God has been teaching me. It's amazing how He uses situations to get you back on track and focused on Him. The past month and a half that I have been here, I have been trying to mold myself to what I thought I should be. But that wasn't what God wanted me to be.He wants to be myself. I wrestled with being myself and allowing God to work through me even when other people think what I do isn't "kosher". I am who I am through Christ.  I don't need to be afraid of rejection, or if everyone likes me. I need to be focused on what God made me to be and let Him be the only one that I worry about. The Joy that comes from seeking Christ and Him alone is incredible!
     My dreams have become more real to me and I can see what God would have to do someday! Everything that He places in our path is there for a reason. Even when we don't understand them. "For I know the plans I have for you" Jeremiah 29:11
        I am a Cowgirl after God and I will serve Him to the utmost for His highest!

Broken by Lifehouse Lyrics

Tonight after talking with my Bestest Buddy Katie Goers (whom I praise God for daily) I was listening to Pandora and this song came on. Through addressing some very hard issues of becoming open and true, and other emotional struggles I feel like I am barely hanging on and I am clinging to Jesus while I fall apart. Please listen to this song and let it minister to you as it has me.

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

    "Turn your eyes upon Jesus! Look full in His wonderful face! And the things of earth will grow strangly dim. In the light of His glory and grace!"

    

     The past month and a half this has been the theme that God has been putting before me. In the weeks while waiting for the confirmation to go to MMR I was very frustrated and angry for not being able just go. God was asking me to focus on Him and not on what I wanted. After finally getting the ok and a week of working out schedules to get me and my horse moved I had come to where God wanted me. But my focus wasn't fully on God it was still on me. Throughout the week of S.A.L.T. and Sr. Snow Camp I had hit a wall and couldn't move forward. The Lord grasped me and said, "Jemi, where are you? Where's your focus? Your heart? I want you to look at Me and want only Me!" I couldn't get anything done without putting my focus on God. It has been a long training process but I am learning to seek the Lord more fully and live more for Christ than anything! There have been many influences in my life to challange me to live a more Christ centered life! This Journey has been amazing!

      Over the past weekend I was blessed with the oppertunity to go to the PA Horse Expo in Harrisburg. It was a weekend full of little blessings. MMR had a booth set up and also a roping station where anyone who wanted to learn to rope could come or just to practice. It was very fun to be able to teach lil' cowpokes to rope and also to meet some pretty cool people! We also were able to minister to the people of the Baptist Church in Perry County! On the way home one of our two vehicles broke down. Thankfully we hadn't actually left Harrisburg and were able to send most of the group back in the SUV and have the blessing of the McLaren boys come and help us fix the van! After an afternoon of playing games in the parking lot, and fixing the van we celebrated at Texas Roadhouse and departed around 9pm. We pulled into the Ranch at 3 am during a thunderstorm and unloaded all of our gear. It was definately an adventure and God was faithful!

             I cannot explain how happy I am to have a Heavenly Father who loves me so much that He would die for me, and who dances over me! How can I turn my face from Him when He did so much to gain me? I love my Heavenly Abba so very much!